I am languishing in a nap (not mine, darling son's) that is going on 2 hours. I have time to think for a second. Last night after I was awakened by the need to pee, I started thinking about finances. No particular reason except the usual condition of being a homeowner and the never ending drain on your bank account. Having worked my entire adult life (actually since age 16) becoming a stay-at-home mom at age 42 was really weird. I mean, it's great and I dread the thought of putting baby boy in daycare. But I also have an overwhelming urge to earn money. How do you take all of that money-earning potential and turn it into baby-raising potential? Shouldn't my child be exponentially brighter and happier because of all of this potential I have shunted from working in to parenting? This is quite a dilemma and sometimes I think the solution must be to find a way to work and be a stay-at-home mom. I know that there is a certain "work family" feeling that we miss when we leave the workplace. Not to mention the brain activity that a job brings and a 10 month old does not. Embrace your new niche. Plug in with others like your self and give yourself a brake!
As for the finances, I am sure that you would not be staying home if your husband and you had not decided that was right and doable. Remember to trust in his ability to provide and lead your family. If you really want to be home, pray for God's provision for you family to allow for that. If you really do not want to be a stay at home mom, revisit this with your husband and seek God's will on the matter. He will surely show you the way you should go.
Let us remember to be satisfied and know that God has us where we are supposed to be. Do it to His glory, whatever it is that He has you doing.
3 Trust in the Lord, and do good;
dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
4 Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.